Saturday, October 23, 2010

Whats stress like for others?

I know that at 15 life gets tough and you just want to walk away. Well try being in a spot that you cant get out of, try telling an older sibling that it's all going to be okay when you can't make that assumption, try being grown up at only 15 years old. Everything you approach in life is there for a reason. All these road blocks are only temporary. You can say that you want out..or that you are out, but who really knows when you are? I remember years ago someone told me I should take caution when it comes to my heart and what I want to do with my life. As I am sitting here typing this I am encouraging you to do the same. Really think about where you are at in life and where you want it to go. Whatever gets thrown your way is for a reason. Whether it be a death or a class that's tough or anything else, it's to make you push pass the easy things to get you through to where you are meant to be. No matter what happens you always have faith and family to carry you through. I lost my sister not to long ago, and it kills to know that it will never be the same. I can't explain what was running through my head when I got the news. I was scared, mad, hurt, pissed off, so incredibly frightening that I was stunned. All these emotions made me become stressed. I lost myself in the midst of all this. My parents became my priority and I shut out all my problems to help my parents get by. But in doing so, I couldn't talk about how I felt, how I was dealing with things, or even what had happened. i bottled up all my emotions hoping that would get me through the pain, well guess what...it made things a heck of a lot worse. I had to lean on my parents once they were past it because I shut out my emotions. It brought back a whole wave pool of emotions for them as well. It ended up backfiring and hurting everyone.  So my advice to you...if you contain all your stress/emotions and help others, it will eventually hurt you more and make things worse for the ones you are trying to help because it will cause you to lean on them. Make it easier for yourself and admit that would are struggling just like they are. They are your support system...don't even forget that.